Tuesday, May 27th, 2025
Bringing the Family to the Rocks
Saturday, May 3rd, 2025: Problems & Solutions, Society.
Trapped in the City?
Some of my friends lost their parents years ago, and never became actively or intimately involved in their late-life care or affairs. Other friends envisioned their retirement as a liberation, hoping to escape the expensive, crowded city where they’d spent their professional lives to some scenic, idyllic rural paradise like the one I found nearly 20 years ago.
But if their parents were long-lived like mine, they might’ve then found themselves trapped in the city, caring for their parents instead of enjoying the freedom of their retirement. Their own health, fitness, or financial security may even begin to decline, eroding those dreams of an active life in a healthier location.
Eighteen months ago, when I found myself suddenly responsible for the care and affairs of my elderly mother and disabled brother, I faced two major obstacles. First, after decades of creative frustration and years of joint pain and arduous rehab, my quality of life now depended on having all my time free for creative work and wilderness exploration. I’d become desperately selfish.
And second, my family was 1,500 miles away.
Who Should Move?
When I told people I was helping my family, the immediate assumption was that I would move to be with them. But mother and brother were living in the center of Indianapolis, a sprawling metro area of nearly a million people, in a monotonously flat, highly developed landscape with neither mountains nor wilderness. An expensive place to live and a dangerous place to drive, with virtually no traffic enforcement, increasing lawlessness, and rising traffic fatalities. Over and over again, I had to explain that I’d spent years searching for this refuge far from crowds and traffic, where I could live cheaper, healthier, and closer to nature and wilderness. I couldn’t conceive of leaving that for a big city – especially in a flat landscape with no wilderness.
It’s common now for families to be geographically fragmented, hundreds or even thousands of miles apart. If it was inconceivable to leave rural New Mexico to care for parents in a distant city, what were the options? For the first year and a half, the only option for me was constant travel, and I found myself spending more and more of my time back there, until last winter when I lived in Indianapolis most of the time. That was the breaking point for me – traveling and living in that crowded, expensive place, caring for my family instead of making art and hiking the wilderness, was destroying my physical and mental health and fitness.
Objections No Longer Valid
So I talked it over with mother and brother, and instead of the superficially easier option of moving me to them, we decided to move them to me. I thought this might be something for others to consider! Trapped in a crowded, expensive metro area caring for your parents and dreaming of some distant time when you can finally escape the city – what about the option of moving the whole family to a cheaper, healthier place?
The arguments against such a move are obvious. How could you subject your elderly parents to the shock of leaving their familiar environment for a strange place where they’d be surrounded by strangers? What about other family members, and friends, who’ll be left behind? What about the significant loss of healthcare resources in a rural region far from the vast resources of a metro area? And what about the cost of the move itself?
In my family’s case, moving became an option only gradually, as we all came to realize those were no longer valid objections. Mother and brother had become increasingly isolated and immobilized by disabilities, so they were no longer an active part of their urban environment and community. The frustration they were feeling made them more open to a move to a completely new environment which might offer new friends and experiences.
Yes, the healthcare resources here are extremely limited. But this is primarily a working class family community, and in that social class, family unity means more than advanced medical care or high-end services. That’s a value system we could all learn from. Our rural small town is far safer than the big city, and in the long run, occasional travel to the nearest city for specialist care is much cheaper and healthier than living there full-time.
Yes, the move is expensive, but the one-time costs are more than offset by the ongoing, long-term savings. Mom’s flight had an overnight in Phoenix, where a homeless man slept on the sidewalk across from our room – at the foot of a corporate bank tower – a reminder of the dehumanizing, inequitable urban environment we were leaving behind.
Move Already Paying Off
Our 98-year-old mother suffers from severe hearing impairment, hypertension, mild incontinence, chronic urinary infections, physical weakness, chronic anxiety, and mild memory loss. Onset of chronic UTIs last summer resulted in hospitalization, confinement to wheelchairs, and total loss of independence in care facilities. She finally began to recover from the UTIs last December, walking again and regaining memory and mental acuity.
Our solution was to fly her here with a hired nurse companion, to arrive at an “assisted living” facility which is like a funky motel, with meals and 24-hour aides to administer meds and do personal care and housekeeping. Her new room is bigger than the room she left in Indianapolis, with a private bath instead of the shared bath she had back there – and for half the monthly room and board.
Reclaiming Independence
The transition was hard on both me and our mother, and it continues to be hard as Mom struggles with her chronic anxiety and I struggle to find balance between helping her and meeting my own needs. But the long-term advantages are already clear to both of us. She loves her new caregivers. She actually has more access to care than in the big city, where resources have deteriorated since COVID. She has much more social interaction and a better diet than when she was living at home. She loves nature, and with me nearby to take her on outings, her quality of life is dramatically improving.
For our mom, losing her independence during the past year has been much harder than moving across the country. She hates to be so dependent on me, and it’s inspiring to see the ways in which she resists the process of aging and reclaims her independence whenever possible. She fights memory loss by capturing her experiences daily in a journal, and a couple of weeks ago she decided to get her hair dyed red – not like most older women, in an attempt to hide her gray hair and look younger, but to show she’s still a creative woman who can make her own decisions.
My brother, morbidly obese with a chronic leg injury, still drives but has become mostly confined to home, where he gets an aide twice a week, and his social life takes place online. I’m looking for a subsidized apartment for him, and we plan to use a “bariatric transport” company which will move him here in 24 hours of continuous travel in a specially equipped van.
Going to the Rocks
During recent years, as I’ve shared my hiking dispatches with our mother, she’s become obsessed with rock formations. She’s endlessly curious and wants to know what they’re made of and how they got that way. When I visit her, she always wants to “go to the rocks”. So on Friday, I took her on a picnic to a state park a 45-minute drive east of town – a spectacular place I still hadn’t seen myself in all the time I’ve been here.
Cowboys and Girls
On the way back, I decided to take a different route, up the river valley where I’d first fallen in love with this area, while staying with new friends at their hot springs “commune”.
That turned out to be a lucky decision, because rounding a bend in the road, we came upon a scene right out of the Old West: cowboys and girls riding hard down a hillside, driving cattle to a corral. There were between six and eight riders, most of them teenage boys and girls, led by adults. It happened so quickly, I had to make a U-turn and pull off the road just as they were finishing up out of sight, so my mom could get a glimpse and I could snap a crude photo.
Ranchhands on horseback is a sight you almost never see in these days of ATVs and UTVs, and we just happened to stumble upon it! A typical day in the Land of Enchantment.
Monday, May 5th, 2025: Chiricahuas, Hikes, Monument, Nature, Rocks, Southeast Arizona.
Not sure what it is that keeps making me want to venture far afield these days. I’m gradually increasing the distance and elevation of my Sunday hikes, but there are plenty of those near town.
The hikes take up less than half a day, so I spend more time driving than hiking. But I don’t mind the highway drives – they clear my head and allow my thoughts to wander freely.
I usually plan to grab an after-hike meal at some acceptable cafe near the destination. Since I get tired of cooking for myself, that’s an incentive in itself. But the main attraction may just be to escape from the stress that can overwhelm me at home. Driving two hours away seems like a mini-vacation.
For this Sunday, I picked an area based on a Mexican restaurant, then studied the map for nearby hikes. The most convenient was a small trail network in a National Historic Site that preserves the ruins of a pioneer-era fort. It’s hidden in foothills between two mountain ranges – the big one I hiked last week, and a much smaller one I’ve wanted to hike but can’t because most of it’s fenced and gated behind private land.
The access road continues over a pass toward my second option, a National Monument on the west side of the big mountain range. In almost 20 years, I’d never explored either of these places – they’d been just too far for my typical all-day hike. The Historic Site turned out to feature some pretty mid-elevation Sonoran habitat, but the trails didn’t look as attractive as what I expected in the Monument, so I filed this area away for future reference and kept driving over the pass.
The country on the southwest side of the pass is rich-looking high-desert rangeland around 5,000 feet in elevation. It feels protected by the mountains to north and east, and remote, although the Monument is served by a roughly paved two-lane highway.
Halfway there I saw an isolated grove of tall conifers just off the highway. I immediately knew it was a cemetery – white colonists of European ancestry identify evergreens with eternal life, and will plant them if suitable habitat is not available. These trees appeared to be Arizona cypress, relocated outside their natural montane habitat. The sight evoked a wave of youthful memories; high school lovers are attracted to cemeteries for both privacy and the romantic pastoral setting, and the first night I spent with my high school sweetheart was in a tiny hilltop cemetery far out in the country, under a grove of pines much like this. Guess you could call us proto-Goths.
Back home, I actually found a web page about this cemetery, which belongs to a ranching family that has been prominent here since pioneer days. Two children of the founder were the first buried there, in 1885.
It’s a small Monument, roughly five miles square, encompassing some of the spectacular rock formations on the west side of the range. I normally avoid National Park Service properties, disagreeing with Ken Burns and the whole “American’s Best Idea” philosophy. The NPS view is that nature is best developed and managed for tourism, but the habitats they manage were actually stolen from native people who used them for subsistence in harmony with native ecosystems.
The tourists who visit national parks subsist on anonymous commodity food and other resources from distant habitats that have been destroyed by industrial agriculture. So National Parks are an integral part of the industrial society that destroys natural habitats and enriches elites.
Another reason I avoid NPS properties is the crowds. I normally encounter other hikers on roughly one out of ten hikes, but today I passed ten other hikers in less than half a day. And this is a remote Monument with much less traffic than most.
The weather was perfect – temps fluctuating between the 70s and 60s, depending on cloud cover and wind, which increased throughout the day.
Getting a late start, I took the first available trail, which started up a canyon bottom through the shade of a riparian forest of tall ponderosa pines, Arizona cypress, and big oaks – white or Emory. Unlike the narrow, overgrown, often abandoned trails I normally hike, this was a wide, laboriously built and heavily trafficked tourist trail. It soon climbed above the canyon bottom and I got my first views of the famous rock formations atop the opposite slope.
After a mile and a half I came to a junction with a branch that headed toward a side canyon. As developed as the first trail had been, this junction was even more impressive, with trail signs in massive stone foundations and dry-stone steps and retaining walls leading up the new trail. Frequent park visitors take features like this for granted, but to me they speak strongly of imperial power and entitlement, like the pyramids of Egypt and Central America. I assumed they had been built by the young men of the Depression-era Civilian Conservation Corps.
Turning into the side canyon, the trail took me directly under spectacular rock formations that were often obscured by forest.
In less than a mile, the trail crossed the head of the canyon and began to climb switchbacks toward the crest. And approaching the crest, the trail became a series of stone steps, constructed with enormous effort by those young men, a hundred years ago. The final climb through the rimrock formations was like something out of the Lord of the Rings movies.
Storm clouds were rapidly covering the sky, and I had to pull on my shell in the sudden cold.
The trail topped out on a rolling plateau where fanciful outcrops rose sporadically out of pine and oak forest. I figured I’d gone about three miles, which, doubled, would be the maximum I wanted to put on my recovering knee – so I turned back, hoping for rain along the way.
As usual, I was paying more attention to my immediate surroundings on the way back. I realized that this would be a perfect place to drop acid – one of the two best I’ve ever seen, along with Arches in Utah.
I noticed how bedrock features had been used or even reshaped by trail builders, and marveled at long drystone retaining walls that had been built below steep sections. Crossing a talus slope, I estimated that many of the stones that had been moved and meticulously placed weighed over three hundred pounds. That long-ago CCC effort was truly like the building of the pyramids! As a kid, I’d taken park features like this for granted, but now I could only see them as reflections of imperial might, the will of the nation imposed on the landscape “for all time”.
I prefer to live lightly on the land, hoping to “leave no trace”.
The final group of fellow hikers that I passed was a family of three with a dog – on leash. Reviewing the NPS trail guide later, I noticed that dogs are not allowed on this trail. That family was training their preteen son to disregard both laws and the common good. Best to start them early, I guess.
On the drive to town for my Mexican meal, I could see rain falling over the pass, and ahead, dust storms had been stirred up by high wind. My little vehicle, taller now with the suspension lift, was hard to keep on the road.
It was even harder crossing the playa the next day, when the wind suddenly carried a dust storm across the freeway, briefly eliminating visibility and driving some vehicles off onto the shoulder. By the time I reached town, I had just missed our first rain in months.
Monday, May 12th, 2025: Blue Range, Hikes, Southwest New Mexico.
Again, I was yearning for a long drive to a hike I’d never done before. The region that regularly draws me is the extremely rugged maze of interlinked mountain ranges about two hours’ drive north of here. It’s mostly unprotected cattle range, mostly unknown to hikers, anchored by the tiny town notorious as headquarters of the right-wing anti-government movement. I’ve done enough hikes there to know that most of them are really hard to drive to, and many are overrun with cattle or defended by rogue bulls. But I love the remoteness, the solitude, and the fact that despite being grazed, this area features native habitat in better condition than much of our big, famous wilderness area.
In the upper part of this area, right below the east-west crest that tops out at 9,000 feet, there’s a T-shaped convergence of abandoned, unmaintained, unpublished trails. Back in 2021, I’d hiked the stem of the T from the south – probably the hardest route-finding challenge I’ve ever faced, since there was literally nothing left in the entire seven miles but occasional cairns, many buried in tall grass.
The top bar of the T is divided into an east half and a west half, traversing the slopes below the crest for a total of seven and a half miles. Last fall when my knee injury prevented me from hiking, I drove to the unmarked trailhead at the east end of that crossbar, hoping I could return later to do the whole traverse. But the backcountry access road was so slow as to make it impractical.
So for this Sunday I had a brainstorm. I’d driven the crest road several times, passing the western trailhead of the T’s crossbar at a high saddle in dense mixed-conifer forest. Despite being shown on maps as abandoned, the trailhead features a maintained kiosk. The hike would start with a major descent into a canyon, which I’m usually not crazy about, but returning with an ascent would be better for my knee. And to the junction and back would be about 5-1/2 miles and 1,800 vertical feet, which should be just right at this stage of my knee recovery.
The day was forecast to be warm, but this trail would lie between 7,000 and 8,000 feet, and I believed most of it would be forested with at least partial shade.
At the kiosk, I noticed that someone had tucked a handwritten message into the bottom of the signboard. I pulled the message off, turned it over, and discovered they’d removed and written on the back of the Spanish-language “WELCOME TO YOUR NATIONAL FORESTS” placard which the United States Forest Service posts on every kiosk.
If I could reply to that message, I would point out that I’m a white person with an English last name, raised to speak English. But most of my ancestors were Gaelic-speaking Scots who were forced by the English to leave their homes and emigrate to this land, which had been conquered and stolen by the English from Native Americans. English is neither my native tongue nor the native language of this “country”. Like me, the kiosk vandal is a colonist, a descendant of either invaders or exiles. None of us has the right to impose one language or another on our neighbors.
So as best I could, I restored the Spanish placard to its place on the kiosk, and cheerfully set out down the trail.
As I said above, this trail starts by descending into a canyon – over 700 vertical feet – and unfortunately for my knee, the grade averaged more than 20 percent and increased in places to over 40 percent on loose rock or scree. Of course, I found none of the elaborate steps built long ago in the national monument I hiked last week – this was a clear trail, but there was no sign of humans on it. I initially assumed it was being maintained by cattle, but saw no tracks during the descent.
After spending the first half of the descent in mixed-conifer forest, I was surprised to suddenly emerge in a long stretch of mostly clear slope: an expanse of fractured bedrock with thin grasses and sporadic shrubs and small trees. This bedrock seemed to be mostly volcanic conglomerate containing colorful pebbles.
I approached the canyon bottom through open ponderosa forest, and could see it was lined with a broad, white debris flow from the 2018 wildfire that burned the crest at the head of the canyon. A very tall and slender narrowleaf cottonwood towered above the debris. And here is where I found the first cattle sign.
On the opposite bank of the canyon, I encountered a recently built stock fence, tight switchbacks that climbed the steep slope this side of the fence, and all the way up, cattle sign weeks and months old. Apart from the fence, I still hadn’t seen bootprints or any other sign of human use, so I began to assume that cattle were keeping brush off this otherwise abandoned trail, which had so far been really easy to follow.
Then, halfway up, I encountered the first of several broad swaths of bare, fractured rock. I was really enjoying the variety of healthy native habitats on this trail. The trail hugged the fence for a while, and I noticed how recent it was – maybe within the past few months. But fencebuilding in roadless country requires horses, and I’d seen no sign of horses, which can persist for up to a year.
The trail finally topped out in a vast area of bare rock, a broad shoulder past which I would enter a new watershed with views toward the area I’d discovered four years ago. I left the cattle sign behind and entered a segment of trail that was clearly being maintained by elk.
This next segment of trail traversed the steep south-facing slope below the crest of this range. On my right was a distinctive peak that I’d rounded on that previous hike, forested but with dark talus slopes on its north side.
The varied terrain continued, with the trail descending a scree slope at a 40 percent grade at one point, into a bare-rock ravine where I was surprised by a trickle of surface water.
This appeared to be an elk highway. But suddenly I came upon tiny fragments of orange rind, dessicated into thin, brittle shards. How quickly would they completely dry out? And how long would they persist on the surface without being scattered or buried by rodents, wind, rain, and erosion? We hadn’t had much precip over the winter but we’d sure had a lot of wind. I guessed they were over a month old, maybe many months – maybe they’d been left by the fencing crew. Maybe the fencing crew had been the only humans on this trail in the past year.
I’d stopped a lot, and climbed slowly on the ascents, and this hike was taking much longer than expected. I remembered the terrain ahead from the previous hike, and the trail junction I was trying to reach didn’t seem to be getting any closer. I’d been hoping to get to town before the market closed at 4 pm, but it wasn’t looking likely.
The trail had been climbing steadily, and I remembered it would descend before the junction. Just as I reached what seemed to be a high point, I stopped in frustration to check the topo map. After puzzling over it for a few minutes, I looked up, and behold! The old, partially collapsed trail sign was in shadow, right off the trail, less than ten feet ahead of me. I was already at my destination and hadn’t realized it! To celebrate, I reassembled the pieces of the sign as best I could.
Wind had been picking up all day, and since the trail was more exposed than I’d expected, I was grateful for cooling breezes. What I love about this trail, in addition to the varied habitats, is that it’s a traverse overlooking endless, rugged, roadless terrain, with views that shift dramatically as you proceed from watershed to watershed.
But it was getting later and later, so I began hiking faster than was probably good for my knee.
When I reached the bald shoulder above the deep canyon, and began descending those seemingly interminable short switchbacks, all I could think of was the tall, steep climb on the other side. After reaching the bottom and starting up, I did have to take it slow in most places, but I’ve been working up to it for months now, gradually increasing the elevation of my hikes, so my wind isn’t bad.
After reaching the vehicle, I raced up, over, and down the crest on that terrible rocky road, and reached the market in town 5 minutes after closing, to find lights out and the door locked…
Monday, May 19th, 2025: Chiricahuas, Hikes, Nature, Plants, Snowshed, Southeast Arizona.
Gradually increasing my distance and elevation, the challenge was finding a hike with the right combination, plus a destination that made it interesting. For this Sunday, I picked a steep hike to a “pine park” – a shallow, grassy basin in the sky surrounded by tall ponderosa pines. This destination had the added bonus of a short extension into the next watershed, overlooking a spectacular canyon.
It’s a two-hour drive, and along the way, I found the desert willows were blooming beside the big arroyos.
Over the years, I’ve gradually become more sensitive to species differences in the trees I hike past, and curious about their names. I’d picked up a field guide to trees a few weeks ago, and brought it along. It turns out I didn’t have the time to stop and identify trees along the trail, so I photographed their identifying features, and made the identifications from the photos later, at home.
Dangerous winds had been forecast all over the region, and my hat blew off as soon as I got out of the vehicle. The trail begins in a sycamore-shaded canyon bottom, bores through a long tunnel of scrub, then climbs steep switchbacks on loose rocks past alligator junipers and various oaks and pines.
At the base of a talus slope. the switchbacks end and the trail begins a steep traverse across the upper slopes of the watershed, through mixed conifer forest that now includes Douglas-fir. Eventually it joins another trail that leads through giant boulders to the pine park. Considering how parched the land is now, I was surprised to find wildflowers at the entrance to the park, in a narrow corridor lined with aspen seedlings.
I continued into the next watershed for the big view. Wind was howling through, so this lofty perch was no place to linger.
I rested in the relatively protected pine park for a half hour or so. But I was hungry, the hike was taking longer than expected due to the steep climb, and my lunch was waiting at the cafe below.
On the way up, I’d been surprised to see no tracks – either of humans or animals – on this well-known trail. But I had seen horse sign from last year, and on the way down, I noticed how the horses had damaged the trail, destroying tread on traverses of steep slopes.
Tuesday, May 27th, 2025: Blue Range, Hikes, Nature, Southeast Arizona, Wildfire.
On the eve of my birthday, driving north to some old favorite country I hadn’t seen in almost two years. Alpine habitat that would be cooler now that our weather at home is finally seasonably hot. An escape from problems at home.
Needing a hike, planning another steep descent – this time into the remote, rugged, lonely country around a small river, a region that keeps drawing me. Passed roadside javelinas in their usual spot, a lone yearling doe on the shoulder, then in the high country of tall ponderosa, dark Doug-fir, grassy meadows and bright aspen, two dozen cow elk grazing in a likewise familiar roadside place. When you inhabit a wild landscape for almost a generation, you’re gifted with wisdom in the form of nature’s patterns.
Finding the trailhead unoccupied and the trailhead log unused since last fall, I set out on a trail invisible under a layer of pine needles. Woodpeckers cried and darted through the trees ahead. In openings in the pines the dirt of the trail showed the bootprints of one recent hiker, bigger than me, wearing fairly new boots. The trail climbed in and out of the burn scar of the 2011 megafire, gaining 400 vertical feet to a saddle where I suddenly crossed to the watershed of the remote river.
The sky had been cloudless during the drive north, but here in the mountains scattered clouds were forming. The other hiker’s tracks stopped at the saddle, so my trail was virgin ahead. Birdsong provided my soundtrack as I traversed down from 8,500 feet on a steep, rocky trail, first flushing a swallowtail butterfly out of the brush, then coming upon bigger and bigger patches of wildflowers and more pollinators. In a drought, the higher elevations always host pockets of fertility.
It was windy over here and I had to cinch my hat down – the dropoff was precipitous. At a patch of bare white bedrock, I saw a little saddle below me and realized I was at the head of the ridge the trail would descend. Descending it through forest that began to host pinyon and alligator juniper, I got my first views of the long, narrow ridge below – named for a horse, it did look like a horse’s back, ending in neck and head.
During the descent, I’d had a higher ridge, in shadow, at my right, but suddenly I reached a point where I could see past it, southwestward, to a towering, distinctive rock formation. And trying to get pictures of it with clouds in the background, I rediscovered clouds, which had been missing from my desperately dry region since last summer.
Clouds are the source of rain – not El Nino or the other global meteorological phenomena favored by scientists and TV weather people. Clouds are sacred beings we ignore at our peril. Here, their shade cooled me after stretches of exposure to sunlight.
And reaching the more level lower part of the ridge, I was continuously exposed, crossing big exposures of the fractured bedrock – volcanic comglomerate – I’d seen recently, east of this broad, rumpled valley. Here I found abundant but old sign of cattle, horses, and elk. And hazardous footing on occasional slopes of loose rock.
The bare rock ridge narrowed to just a few yards at a low saddle. Climbing past it, I noticed smaller birds – ravens? – harrying a hawk ahead. I’d stopped a lot and was worried about reaching my lodging for the night before closing time, so I stopped short of where I’d planned to turn back. Just at the base of the rise that formed the top of the horse’s head. I didn’t mind stopping – this had been a spectacular hike in spectacular weather. It’d taken me two hours and fifteen minutes to go just under three miles, downhill.
I spent even more time in the shade on the way back, and the wind was rising, too. I wasn’t looking forward to the ascent, but it turned out to be fine, taking less time than the descent.
I’d reserved a room within the burn area of a large wildfire that had only been controlled within the past week, so I was anxious to see the damage. They’d stopped it precisely at the highway, and from what I could see it appeared to be a low-intensity surface fire.
Both elk and mule deer were out in the riparian meadows that evening. I wondered what had happened to the bighorn sheep whose habitat is totally within the burn area – presumably they’d sheltered in the river canyon, below its walls of sheer basalt.
