{"id":10770,"date":"2020-08-17T10:57:02","date_gmt":"2020-08-17T16:57:02","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/maxcarmichael.com\/blog\/?p=10770"},"modified":"2022-10-20T08:33:46","modified_gmt":"2022-10-20T14:33:46","slug":"hiking-through-trauma","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/maxcarmichael.com\/blog\/?p=10770","title":{"rendered":"Hiking Through Trauma, Part 1"},"content":{"rendered":"

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First Sunday<\/h1>\n

My house fire occurred on a Monday morning. My neighbors were wonderful as usual, but the aftermath was an ongoing series of crises that fell on my shoulders alone. By Sunday I was a wreck.<\/p>\n

I headed for the trail in the high mountains to the northwest, the trail where I can get 4,000′ of elevation gain and an expansive view of the tallest peaks. We were still in a drought and heat wave at home, but I was hoping for rain or at least cloud cover up in the mountains.<\/p>\n

It’s an hour’s drive from my temporary accommodations to the trailhead. Suffering from PTSD, my heart fell when I rounded a bend, got a view of the canyons and peaks I’d be climbing, and saw smoke from a wildfire back in the wilderness near where I was headed. My first thought was that the trail would be closed by firefighting equipment.<\/p>\n

I turned off and drove up the dirt road into the foothills. I passed a truck and encountered an older couple walking beside the road. They said they lived down in the valley and I asked them about the fire. They said the Forest Service was aware of it but wasn’t doing anything. That was both good and bad news. I could get to the trail but didn’t know if I could hike it safely.<\/p>\n

The couple dismissed my concerns. “If you see smoke ahead, just turn around and hike out!” said the woman. This was the only trail this side of town that would kick my ass, which in my damaged state I mistakenly thought I needed, so I didn’t want to give it up. What pathetic animals we humans are!<\/p>\n

The sun blazed down in the canyon, and the humidity turned out to be as bad as I’d ever experienced. My clothes were all drenched with sweat at the halfway point, so I stopped for lunch and hung my shirt and bandanna headband over branches, hoping they’d dry a little.<\/p>\n

On the climb, a thunderhead finally began to develop in the east, moving over the crest. It chilled the alpine air but failed to drop any rain. From the little knob on the shoulder of the peak, I could finally see the fire, a few miles due east. It was one drainage away near the head of the biggest canyon in this part of the mountains, and its smoke was beginning to pour north over the ridge into a smaller side canyon.<\/p>\n

I took a picture of myself up there, as usual, but I look too miserable to include it in this Dispatch.<\/p>\n

On the way back to town I saw a serious storm in the east, and it turned out we’d finally gotten a little rain back home.<\/p>\n

\"First <\/a>
First view of wildfire smoke up the canyon ahead <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Pale <\/a>
Pale smoke rising behind the canyon I’m heading for <\/div> <\/div>
\"Despite <\/a>
Despite drought, a little water remains in the canyon from mountain storms <\/div> <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Hanging <\/a>
Hanging clothes up to dry in the muggy canyon <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"A <\/a>
A tiny vale of ferns spans a switchback in the climbing trail <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Thunderhead <\/a>
Thunderhead growing out of the east up ahead <\/div> <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"First <\/a>
First glimpse of the wildfire from the crest <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Interesting <\/a>
Interesting burn scar vegetation in a spot badly burned by the 2012 wildfire, where a surface of pale, fractured rock seems to discourage revegetation <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Wildfire <\/a>
Wildfire smoke pouring over the ridge in the east <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Big <\/a>
Big storm east of the highway on the way home <\/div> <\/div> <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>\n

Next: Part 2<\/em><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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